Let's Just Fly

I woke up this morning so ready to write...then the rest of the day happened!! I am thankful for every blessing in my life and all, but somedays just stinks! I have spent hours trying to figure out this stupid itune folder in my computer!!!!! It just makes me so mad when I squander my time and accomplishing nothing. The point to spending time on my computer is to relax....yeah, right! I am so mad it makes me wish I still smoked so I could go smoke one!!! (Don't worry anyone that may be reading. I haven't in 8 years so I don't think I'll let a fight with my computer have that power over me! ) It's just been a strange week. Houston, Ms is a very small town and two days ago, three deaths occured between here and our surrounding community. One young man was killed in a car accident, one older gentleman lost his battle with cancer, and one older gentleman took his own life. What do you say to that? There are no words. Life sure is precious. It just struck me that 3 different lives were gone in 3 totally different ways! Three different families will forever be changed. Not to mention the ripple effect each life had on others. We humans think we are all knowing in this age we live but faced with our immortality we are speechless. God and God alone holds our lives in His hands and He alone is all knowing. You know, the most speculation of these 3 deaths has by far been the gentleman that took his life. Now bless that family for the unanswered questions and second guessing I'm certain is going through their hearts and minds. Scripture teaches that NO ONE knows the heart of another....just God alone. So, my thing is, let's all just let God be God. I, for one, have battled serious depression in my life as I'm almost certain many of the population has at one time or another. Praise God that my nature is not to stay where I am but try to seek help anyway I can. This was the darkest time in my life and I was so lonely. Of course there were others around me at all times but that did not make any difference. When I finally got the courage to share my darkness with a clergy member, he basically scolded me. Sure, consequences to decisions paved the way for this pit of despair I was in, but.......my pastor? Not only did he scold me but betrayed my trust by sharing my "life" with others! You must understand , it took me years to get nerve to tell anyone my "stuff" then that! Well, others certainly noticed and many responded with' just snap out of it' . Oh, dear friend, if it were that easy. Well, without getting into too much more of this story(which I have often shared in settings that invite hearing what God has done that changed my entire life,marriage , and family...and Hank shares also) let me just say there are no words to describe how disheartening it is to hear those words. Nothing would please someone battling depression than to snap out of it. Society has come so far, but I find this subject still is not spoken of often. Well, it is something each of us should pray for discernment because either you, or someone you love will ,or has already, experienced this in their lifetime. In my case, I sought out family and friends to pray with me , went to Christian counseling( EVERY TIME I came home told Hank I was NOT going back---I did and it saved my life) and Bible study! Finally, I took medication that I am still on today and may always be. I now feel myself again! I will forever have a heart for a hurting sister or brother and please always understand that you never really know what it's like in someones shoes until you have literally walked in them. God has used this greatly in my life and what Satan meant for evil, God uses for His glory and good almost every day of my life in someway. Please pray that God will grow your heart to have compassion on others especially in the ways we don't always understand! We seem to want to put everything and ,everyone in pretty little boxes . Well, I personally would suffocate in one and almost did. If the Son sets you free, you are free indeed! AMEN!!!!!!!!!!! I'm free, are you???? Then fly and if along the way you see a fallen on....help them find their wings! Do you think I think I know everything, I certainly hope, and bet, you don't. I do know our thoughts aren't His thoughts. He uses everything! And I MEAN EVERYTHING!!!! YOU CAN NOT OUT SIN GOD!!!!! His grace is greater and goes lower than your worst mistake.( Hey, your sin can't be worse than mine so don't start believing the lie that you already have!!!!! YOU HAVE NOT) !!) I am a work of recycled trash in progress!. He uses cracked pots and trades beauty for ashes . Seek Him, and you WILL find Him! I'm so weird and you know, I really don't care! "I am fearfully and wonderfully made" scripture says. He loves you soooooo much! He made you--you! So what if you are weird or don't fit "in the box" or always " color in the lines" ! PRAISE GOD for your individuality! Let's all relax and get comfortable in our on skin and for once---just live! Really live!! That God is something....I started out wanting to smoke and pitch a fit over this silly computer and now- I'm a peaceful as I can be. Life happens!!!! We are growing or dying, stifled or trying....but if you know someone lonely or crying---pray for them and love them! You may be the only Bible they ever see. Wear Him well!!!! If you are reading this, please pray for the 3 families I have mentioned. It doesn't matter one bit that you don't know their names, God does!! May God bless each of you!

That's all for now,
LO